Updates

So I have held off on posting the last few drafts until charges were filed.  I'll ask Ashley's permission to post them publicly once she reads them.

today...

was a much better day...thank goodness for that...

love and light <3>

sigh...

geeze Blogger was being a PITA today...

so i have been thinking about the above graphic a lot lately...realizing that the time has come to change a few more things in my life i guess...that is the easy decision...but what to change is a bit more difficult.  its not just as easy as saying, "I don't like my job"...not really.  There are many reasons why you might not like your job that have nothing to do with the job itself...getting to the root causes and exploring why you feel a particular way is quite a bit more difficult. 

compounding this situational frustrastraion is the stress i feel from every direction at the moment...and going to yoga is not keeping me sane at this point since i have not been able to go very often due to 50 thousand other things that i am responsible for at the moment...

next week we will be on vacation with the ILs and i fear that all this will do is magnify the already apparent cracks in the foundation and make my lose my shit in front of them.  mother of the year...right here.

Peach Jam

I love making freezer jam!  I discovered this technique last year after yet another failed boiling water canning incident with low/no sugar strawberry jam. 

Little man and hubby and I made Peach Freezer Jam last night and it was awesome.  I'll try to post pix once I take some...and the recipe...its super easy!

Post Dental Extraction...

Holy crap I have been so freaking spaced out this week.  It all started after my dental appointment on Tuesday where I had a rogue molar extracted that had been working its way out for the last almost 20 years.  It had finally developed a cavity in the tooth, and without a companion molar on the bottom to butt up against it would eventually just fall out.  The dentist and I decided it was just better to pull it since I had no intention of getting a tooth implant in the bottom gum. 

To say the extraction was difficult is quite an understatement...One of the roots of the molar extended about 180 degrees in the opposite direction from the other two roots.  At least now I know why it had taken almost 20 years and it was still firmly in my gums.  After several different tools and a new, bigger pair of 'yankers' she did everything but put her foot in my chest to extract the tooth and it finally came free.  I was left with a bit gaping hole in the back of my mouth that resembled the bat cave and have been taking it easy food wise since then.  I have mostly just taken Aleve when my mouth gets sore, and only took half a Percocet the night after surgery to take care of the pain. 

I have been doing kind of a juice detox/cleanse the last two days so maybe it is the toxins coming out of my body/blood stream that are causing the spaciness and tiredness.  Only I don't remember feeling this way during my last detox...and I am taking my vitamins and fish oil too, and keeping hydrated so I don't think it is that.  I would think it was maybe hypoglycemia if I was dizzy, but I'm not.

So I have no idea why I feel so spaced out and exhausted...the local anesthetic should have worn off way before now and the percocet is definitely out of my system, I think.  So what gives?

so where have I been the past few years...well working and having a toddler/little man took over I guess lol...but I'm back :D

Random musings as of late
So lately I have come to the realization that I am some kind of really crazy hippy lady :) Even more than channeling my great gma (whose 100th birtday was this month) I have decided to go my own way.  To travel into uncharted territory.  As much as it is liberating, it is slightly terrifying at the same time...a creature that craves some sort of stability and foundation is slightly uneasy without knowing what the final outcome may contain.  I guess that is just something I will have to get used to.

What sort of measuring stick am I using for this 'analysis?' I guess that would have to be the parent that I planned to be.  You know, long before I had any idea of what the hell I was doing.  Long before I had done any research about stuff I never questioned before.  Some of these topics I have becomre very passionate about and may change the way in which our family is structured and our work outside the home.  And I keep telling myself that change is good and abandoning outdated ideas when the no longer work for you is essential. 

Ideas that I will be exploring in upcoming posts include:  canning, juicing, homeschooling, vaccinations, positive/gentle discipline, and other fun stuff!